The past few weeks have been a real struggle. Not only have I been spending an excessive amount of time by myself, but I'm right in the midst of drafting my Spring 2011 collection and it's been killing me. The same problems I always encounter with a new collection are still prevalent - straying too far from my original concept, trying to find small sample quantities of notions etc. without having to plunk down a ton of cash for many more than I need, over-thinking everything & not trusting my instincts, the overwhelming fear of cutting sample fabric before I'm really ready to, the overwhelming fear of spending money, trying to make too many things, losing focus......
This time has been extra hard what with R out of town and Genevieve, my ever-trusted critic, having moved recently to Montreal. It really has been a lonely, slogging immersion in the creative process which, I've realized, is not entirely healthy for me. People often ask me how the collection is coming along and I catch myself thinking "goddamn you, how dare you even deign to ask when you know I'm in the plodding depths of creative despair?" Of course this rivals my other favorite thought which is "goddamn you, how dare you not even bother to ask when you know I'm in the plodding depths of creative despair?" Feelings are confusing.
R finally got home on the weekend and I'm starting to feel better about things. Even keeping a regular schedule again helps. Monday I had a great day of drafting and I'm beginning to feel like a collection is finally emerging from this creative no man's land I've been swimming in for weeks. So I say.
My Patterns are always such a mess when I'm through with them. Of course some people don't care, they'll sleep on anything:
2 comments:
everything looks so exotic. i love your drawings. it'll be interesting to see what our different spring themes come out as. i can already see similar aspects eek. get out of my head.
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xo
you are one complicated lady. It all looks really exciting. Cleo rules.
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